Hey fuckers. Bleary eyed sipping cold coffee cuz too lazy to make a fresh pot and sun streaming in the window. It has been an emotional few months but hanging in there. Stoked on the brilliant new release from Tamaryn to keep the melodic ghostly introverted vibes strong day or night and getting ready to face the day job on a bright New York Saturday but wanted to post some metal stuff for you cats and dogs and cat dogs (there are no dog cats) first.
Watched The Dirt on Netflix last night and while of course Motley are not exactly the least problematic band ever, I think Nikki has come a long way and met him once at a signing. I will always remember having the Dr. Feelgood tape and my first baby sitter being horrified, lol. She said it would lead to bad things. Well, I did choose to become a rocker and don’t regret it, despite a a lot of hardship. I never would have performed with Cycle Sluts From Hell or interviewed some of y’all or opened for Jake E. Lee with a Motley/VH cover band w my friend Elan singing with me who is like a twenty foot tall punk rock blonde and we had the funnest time – if I hadn’t been entranced by “Kickstart My Heart’ and the vitriol and attitude of some of that stuff as an early teen. It doesn’t mean I didn’t learn lot from riot grrrl afterwards and that I can’t also be objective and put things into cultural perspective.
One thing I liked about The Dirt…I see it as a cautionary tale. They all fucked their lives up royally. I don’t see how anyone can think the movie strictly celebrates hedonism and sexism with no consequences (especially when you see all the women they care about leave them for their bullshit, the very terrifying car crash segment and Nikki fucking dying). Also, fans of the band know how much Nikki has tried to get people to understand addiction since, even if Vince has still been messy over the years (like even ENTERTAINING the idea of playing for Trump is way fucked up, dude). I think Vince has some major ptsd and needs the most guidance still to this day. Shit, I think a lot of people have PTSD from some of that era, fans and bands both. I hope this movie furthers a conversation about addiction, agency, internalized sexism and an array of other things. The good and the bad. It wasn’t all of either.
All I know is as a teenager I used to do a LOT of heroin and the movie made me miss my friends dearly and former bandmates who died from it and feel so lucky I am still here. I also feel thankful for the good things I still have and pray to use them wisely. I also think that people should look at Nikki’s truly fucked up childhood as a pretty key element of the nihilism and party sexism of the band and that there is a sense of regret, but you can’t just whitewash the time period either and pretend it never was hedonistic or massively fucked up. I also think it is good they showed some of the fucked up things in the movie like Tommy hitting someone because it would have been really shitty to skip that, like NWA completely skipping Dee Barnes in the Straight Out Of Compton movie is very problematic to me.
Anyway, The Dirt made me cry a few times and I also have lost kids and it is fucking sad. I hope people learn from it and don’t just celebrate the nudity and chaos but also see how you can rise up through friendship and even when you circus dance with the devil sometimes you can pull yourself back…but you have to pay the price and also acknowledge harm. So I DO think it is good it came out now in 2019.
Amygdala have signed to Prosthetic Records, the label who are most leading the way in good signings in the scene of late. Our Voices Will Soar Forever (sounds like a lost Red Sparowes album name) is up for pre-order and a very powerful song “I Hate To Say It” that kind of reminds me of Burnt Books a little bit. Fucking raw and dissonant and epic stuff. Harsh and kind of crust punk vocal vibes and brilliant arrangement highlighting the emotional impact. And that 2:20 guitar break and scream, holy shit! Check them out now!
Bay Area death machines Ulthar are on tour! Featuring within its ranks Shelby Lermo (Vastum, Extremity), Justin Ennis (Void Omnia, ex-Mutilation Rites, ex-Tombs), and Steve Peacock (Mastery, Pandiscordian Necrogenesis, Pale Chalice), ULTHAR is touring in support of their Cosmovore debut LP, released late last year via 20 Buck Spin. Cosmovore was engineered, recorded, and mixed by Greg Wilkinson (Brainoil, Deathgrave) at Earhammer Studios and mastered by Justin Weis at Trackworx. Totally killer band.
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